New Start.

I am horrible at keeping up with this thing.
Nathan and I have been "going out" four months this Saturday.
Every second has been so incredible.
I swear, I will marry this boy.
we haven't fought once. I never get mad at him.
We are good for each other.
I am happy. Things are finally going right.
Summer is coming and it will be crazy.
I love my hectic life. Sometimes I just want to sit back and watch everyone else.
Just to sit there and hold Nathan's hand as life rushes by us.
I haven't written any poetry in a while, which is sad.
I need to.
but, I am lazy.

Much love,
Debra

Lydia holds my heart

Well I saw you fall back once love.
But I can't stay.
Stay like this weather swirls,
Cause you've become sick like this winter girl.
Two more days, just two more.

Now I see.
Don't you say that I've gone crazy.
Because I haven't gone crazy yet.
I just lost my mind,
But I still got you.

Stay up late so you're sure.
Sure that I wont stray too far,
But surely that got too hard.
Love is not for me,
I promise.
One more day, just one more.

I'd Stay If I ever could,
Stay if I ever could.
And pick up your pieces babe,
Cause there's never a perfect day.

The Words That Choke Me Daily

No Name by Debra Bergquist
October 4th, 2009


Depression creeps into my soul,
words that were never said make me choke.
The words that hang on my tongue feel like a thousand pounds.
Still, you aren't here.
My eyes cry desperately for tears that still haven't flowed.
You are still not the person I want you to be.
I wait and wait,
when will you stop this nonsense?
You act like you care,
then you act like you don't.
Would you make up your mind?
My hands reach out for you,
but you keep pushing me away.
I try to love you like you deserve,
but what do I deserve?
Don't I deserve some sort of comfort?
Some sort of peace that I can grasp with my fingers.
I feel like I should have what you had.
You had her.
You had your world.
I haven't had anything except a broken heart and twisted mind.
You aren't the same man.
She broke you.
She made you different.
You may not see this,
But I do.
I haven't been able to look into your eyes in so long,
but I know she broke you.
I struggle with the right words to say to you,
yet they come out so wrong,
so twisted.
Please try to listen to what I am saying.
Try to grasp the feelings I try so hard to hide.
You are my only exception.

My First Poem

Drowning by Debra Bergquist
September 15th, 2009

I am drowning,
the air is leaving,
and my world is spinning.
My heart is racing,
and my head is aching.
The water fills my lungs,
and I see your face.
I reach for you,
but you just go away.
I flash to the time where you made me unexplainably happy,
and you don't even know.
I think I gave you my heart that day,
but yet, you kept walking away.
I know you love her,
but did she ever love you?
Your heart is aching,
and mine is too.
I want you to be happy,
And I think I've sacrificed mine.
Why can't you see?
I am drowning.
The air is leaving.
My world is spinning.
My heart is racing.
My head is aching.
I slip under the water,
and cry out your name.
You are gone.
And I am too.
I wake up,
it was just a dream.
Just a vivid, heart breaking dream.
When will you realize I am waiting?